Slipping into Darkness

            I’m so nervous. I’m excited, but terrified. What if it happens again…? What if she does what my father did…? No, this is supposed to be fun. Eh, I’ll at least give her a chance. It’s going to be our first time, we've been together for about three months, and it’s a bit fast but I want my girl to be happy.

            “Are you ready baby?” Angelina pleaded tugging at my shirt.

            I nodded slowly, very nervous and worried, but I trust her.

            She whispered in my ear softly, “Close your eyes, Erin.” I hesitated at first but I did what she asked. “Don’t peek.” She teased.

            I woke up to find myself on a bed in a white room, and a searing pain across my chest. I tried sitting up but I was stopped short by the intense agonizing sensation radiating from my side and neck. I tried getting up another way but I screamed as soon as my leg moved. Hearing my cry, a doctor and two nurses rushed into the room. The doctor stood beside me while one nurse stuck a needle into an I/V bag by the bed and the other closed the curtain.

            “Try not to move too much you've lost a lot of blood.” I forced myself to try to relax because to the pain was too intense to fight even though I was scared out of my mind. “Are you feeling well enough to answer a few questions?”

            “I think so.” I responded weakly.

            “Alright, but try not to strain yourself too much, you are on strong pain medication.” He whispered to the nurse and she walked out of the room, followed by the other nurse.

            A few minutes later a cop walked in and started asking me questions. “What’s your name kid?” He asked as he pulled out what looked like to be a little note pad.

            “Erin Jonn.”

            “Okay Erin, how old are you?”

            “I-I’m seventeen…” I began to tremble but I don’t have the slightest clue as to why.

            “Can you tell me what happened?” I stared at him blankly. I can’t answer. I don’t know what happened.

            “I don’t know… The last thing I remember is-…” I trailed off as I realized what had happened. She did it. Exactly as I feared. Old and repressed memories of my father engulfed me. The once bright, white room that I woke up in was now a black cage. Both new pains and old scars alike stabbed me over and over again with no end in sight. Hot tears poured down my face silently like they used to every night. His voice echoed in my skull. I was back in that small closet from years ago, his hand around my neck and my face up against the wall. There is a light trying to break through the darkness but he is standing in the way, blocking its warmth and protection. “You make one sound and you’re dead.” Then suddenly he disappeared, but so did the light because someone else was in the way. My Angel was there standing before me. “Don’t peek baby.” The shrill voice pierced my heart. She stares at me smiling the smile of the fallen Archangel Lucifer. Slowly she steps aside and the light breaks through all at once, destroying the darkness and returning me to that white room.

            I woke up back in the bed, the cop and doctor had gone, but a single nurse sits in the chair beside the bed. I don’t feel anything. Sitting up slowly, I look down at my body to see what exactly was causing me so much pain earlier. I find that my breasts are wrapped in gauze with a thick line of blood stained into the gauze. It’s where she clawed me, she dug her nails in deep as if she were trying to physically rip my broken heart out. More bandages are on my neck. Her razor sharp teeth had bitten a small hole in my neck. I’m uncomfortable in this bed. I threw the sheets off and noticed the massive gauze that were in between my legs. I don’t remember what she did there and I don’t wish to.

            There was one thing was puzzling me though, I’m not feeling any pain at all, why? “You’re are on heavy painkillers sweetie.” The nurse said as if reading my mind. “How are you feeling?”

            “I don’t feel anything, no pain, nor emotions.”

            “Really? Nothing at all?”

            “Nothing.” The nurse pushed a button on the side of the bed and the doctor walked in again.

            “You buzzed?” He greeted, chuckling softly.

            “She says that she isn't feeling any pain or emotions at all.” The nurse informed.

            The doctor checked my pulse and asked, “So you aren’t feeling any emotions at all?”

            “None at all.”

            “Well, you have just suffered an emotional trauma so this could be a possible side effect,” He suggested. “But the physical pain will return once the pain medication wears off.”

            “Okay.” I just laid back down on the bed and stared at the ceiling.

            A few hours later a nurse knocked on the door frame and announced that I have a visitor. “Hey baby.” All the pain and emotions came rushing back, back into the darkness.